Dancing in G Little Utopia

Ada yang hilang dari langit Jakarta petang ini Bukan karena pekak suara klakson kendaraan yang saling beradu Atau, Bukan juga karena peluh debu yang bersatu Ada yang hilang dari langit Jakarta petang ini Keramahannya pada seorang sunyi seperti aku Seakan mencoba untuk menepis dan tak mau berjalan lagi di sisi Aku, aku yang berjalan Beriringan dengan langkah-langkah para pencuri senja Aku yang berjalan Mencoba menerobos suara yang ramai dengan hati yang sepi Ada yang hilang dari langit Jakarta petang ini Membuat aku merasa asing, dengan sebuah percobaan atas rasa damai Membuatnya terlihat kejam -- tak lagi menyapa ramah para penjaja waktu Jakarta tak lagi terasa hangat dan bersahabat Ada yang hilang dari langit Jakarta petang ini Mungkinkah aku yang harus berlabuh di ujung samudera lain?

I always believe that being alone is not miserable. What makes it unbearable is how other people thought about it. But then, people will always believe what they want to believe? So, why even bother trying to convince them something that won't change? The truest pain is loneliness. It could crawl up to your mind and brain on the loudest day ever. It could just eat your soul alive. And, loneliness is sad. It makes you believe that you are not worthy. It makes you feel like you're an outcast - that you don't belong. And for that, I am an expert now. It's funny now to think that how everyone can never know anyone. Just like an old friend of mine who I bumped into last week, she told me that she can never picture me to ever feel lonely. Why would she? I always put up a bright persona. My former manager also mention once that I am a "must-do" person. And, every force task is just a great new adventure. But actually, inspite of my cheerful and can-do attit

I have been thinking bout my dad a lot lately. Well, precisely, I always think about my dad when I'm upset or sad. Sometimes I always feel how the universe is so unfair - making one great man to die too soon.  But, again,  I never valued him this much before. Maybe that's what people said about regret. It always comes later ... Well, my dad always become the benchmark of every milestone I have in my life. He's the one that inspire me to get higher degree, to have a successful career, and to be a good person.  For some reason, lately I have been feeling kinda lost.  One of my father's lesson that I always look up to is. "Always take an extra mile in every thing that you do. No matter how hard it is - it would teach you something. You may not feel it now, but someday you'll be grateful for the extra work you have done." And now, I feel like I wanna give up.  It's not like I am quitter. It just feels like the extra mile has gone

I keep telling my self that today is going to be a good day And at the end of the night, I would burst my self to tears again Sitting alone in the dark, so no one could see my tears falling down to my cheek I keep telling my self that the storm will pass And every inch of my body is aching,  knowing that tomorrow I will still have to walk into the fire again I keep telling my self that I am alright but, I don't know if it is actually right The thought of leaving is haunting me down .. and I can't stop my head from spinning .. and I can't stop my heart from beating too fast And, my mind keep screaming -- telling me to go But, I don't have the courage to do so All I want is just ... for the pain to stop

I won't tell you I'm lonely 'Cause it might be selfish I won't ask you to hold me 'Cause that won't mend what's helpless There's not a thing I could say Not a song I could sing For your mind to change Nothing can fill up the space Won't ask you to stay But let me ask you one thing When did you fall out of love? When did you fall out of love with me? I can't float in an ocean That's already been drained I won't cry at your feet now I know my tears will fall in vain There's not a thing I could say Not a song I could sing For your mind to change Nothing can fill up the space Won't ask you to stay But let me ask you one thing When did you fall out of love? When did you fall out of love with me? No use wondering While your change in heart has wandered So I ask you this question 'Cause it might help me sleep longer When did you fall out of love? When did you fall out of love with me?