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A Letter to God

Dear God,

I know that you're there. Somewhere up above. A place where no one can see you. (Don't you think it's a little bit selfish, because you can see all of us down here while we can't even seen you for a second?) But well, based by some irrational thinking, we, human, still believe that you are exist. And that's why we called it as faith.

For me, I have a strong believe in you. I do believe that you are exist, even my rational mind always tells me different. I can't see you there because I know that you are not there, because you are here, inside of me.

So God, if you really are the all mighty, the great one, the one who can create anything in this world, I have a question for you. Just one question.

Why did you make difference?

Well, people said that being different is good. Differences is beautiful. But is it so?

Because what I see right now is differences make the world unpeace. Because of the differences between people, people will easily get mad and crash each other.
So, we can't say that the world is beautiful anymore because of the differences, right? Because the fact told me that differences won't complete us, but it will againts us.

One thing that really makes me sad is about the differences sight of searching for you, God.

In my world, in my little piece of world, I was forced to choose you as one of my believe in a certain way. Why does it have to be like that? Is there any God besides you? If it's not, why is there so many route that we have to choose just to talk to you? Why do I have to choose one of them? Why do I have to lie to people that I met about what I believe just to make them feel that I'm not different from them?

Can you please answer it God?

Because now, I've been through this whole journey looking for the right track just to get to know you better, but still, it doesn't seem to be good enough for them.

p.s. : listen to this song while reading this post . ^_^

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