Dancing in G Little Utopia

I keep telling my self that today is going to be a good day

And at the end of the night, I would burst my self to tears again

Sitting alone in the dark, so no one could see my tears falling down to my cheek

I keep telling my self that the storm will pass

And every inch of my body is aching,

knowing that tomorrow I will still have to walk into the fire again

I keep telling my self that I am alright

but, I don't know if it is actually right

The thought of leaving is haunting me down

.. and I can't stop my head from spinning

.. and I can't stop my heart from beating too fast

And, my mind keep screaming -- telling me to go

But, I don't have the courage to do so

All I want is just ...

for the pain to stop

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