Dancing in G Little Utopia

I keep telling my self that today is going to be a good day

And at the end of the night, I would burst my self to tears again

Sitting alone in the dark, so no one could see my tears falling down to my cheek

I keep telling my self that the storm will pass

And every inch of my body is aching,

knowing that tomorrow I will still have to walk into the fire again

I keep telling my self that I am alright

but, I don't know if it is actually right

The thought of leaving is haunting me down

.. and I can't stop my head from spinning

.. and I can't stop my heart from beating too fast

And, my mind keep screaming -- telling me to go

But, I don't have the courage to do so

All I want is just ...

for the pain to stop

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finally . gw memulai resolusi tahun baru gw dengan lebih awal . yeph . gw berencana untuk kembali menulis lagi taun depan. 'moga-moga beneran bisa berjalan lancar' (cross finger!) yah . akhirnya di jumat malem ini, gw tiba-tiba dapet smangat baru . so here i am . at momento cafe with my boy, and other boy friends gw mulai sign up lg buat blog baru dgn harapan gw bisa kembali menjelajahi sisi terdalam gw buat nulis. whatever it sound . hehehe . smangad banget hr ni, padahal sebenernya gw capek bgt . blom da ksempatan bwat plg . blom ada waktu bwat tidur siang . 'haha. realii a keboo!' tapi senenk bgt drtd ngomongin masa-masa depan gw yg bakal gw laluin dengan hectic . weird?! yeph. karena gw lbh suka sibuk dibanding gw harus terpuruk dalam kesendirian dan ke-non-gawean . it drives me nuts ! so . one of the dream for next year . one project . masdha carnival 'bangkit dan bersuara' haha ! smoga sukses kawan-kawan . ayo kita bangkit dan bersuara bersama . it's ...

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